My recovery cuppa…not quite the NHS dishwater in Styrofoam cup!
Yesterday I went in for egg collection at Lister….let me tell you people, private hospitals are the way to go! This was my first experience of having an actual procedure in one (apart from all the appointments/blood tests etc in the clinic) and it was brill!
Anyway, onto the important bit! The consultant managed to get 7 eggs, which is one more than my first fresh cycle last year although she did say that a couple were from smaller follicles so might not be mature, but had already kind of expected that as only had 4 leading follicles at the scan on Monday.
Then we had the agonising wait to this morning to find out the fertility report. Unfortunately DH had to go into work so I got my mum round to wait for the call with me. It came at 10.30….4 of the eggs fertilised, the other 3 weren’t mature. I think I was hoping for 5 to fertilise so am slightly disappointed but mostly just relieved that we’ve got some! In our last round we had 6 eggs, all fertilised and 4 went to blastocyst. So I’m kind of expecting to lose 2, which will leave us with 2….2 is obviously better than none but, man. I’m having a bit of a hard time today with the ‘but its so unfair’ feelings. A colleague of mine has just had non-identical twins. She managed to pop out 2 embryos for free and I’ve spent the best part of £10k on a maybe. I’m getting really sick of this shit.
Just been talking to DH about getting our lives back for a bit. If this cycle doesn’t work, and we do manage to get a frostie I just don’t think I’ve got it in me to do a FET before our wedding in October. It takes so long to get back from the brink of despair – its harder each time and don’t think I can do it twice before the wedding. So if it doesn’t work then I think we’ll just have our lives back again for the rest of the year. We’ll eat what we want, drink what we want (well, obvs not anything, I will be on a wedding diet!!) and just be us again. Three years of relentless ttc-ing has been so exhausting and as awful as it is to not have our baby, it would be way worse to not have each other. I think it will be time to just be normal again for a while.
And that sounds pretty amazing right about now.
NewtoIVF 
Praying for you. I was disappointed in the number of eggs we got from my first IVF cycle, 6. In my TWW now. Best of luck to you!
and to you! Its such a tough ride! x
Ooh, posh!!! I had to bring my own snack to have after egg collection, private or not
I’m going to the wrong place!!
There are so many disappointments in IVF. So, so, so many more than I realised when I first started. I thought I’d already been through the mill when I reached the IVF starting line, but nope. IVF is horrible. Unless it works, in which case (I imagine) it’s the best thing ever!! I really, really, REALLY hope these are the fabulous four and your baby is in there. You’ve been though enough already. I’ve got everything I have crossed for you lovely xxxx
that was just the start!! I got a 3 paged menu to order lunch from!! could have had steak dinner! Was so weird..I really should have married for money….I guess its not too late 🙂
It really is a total shitter and I’m fucking sick of it. After this go no more for the rest of the year, I’ve had it.xx
Waaaat!!!! Amazing! What did you eat? At least you get the premium treatment for the premium price tag!
It is a total shitter, I know. I’m so sick if it too. It makes me feel panicky when I think I started IVF 15 months ago and am precisely nowhere at all. I think this cycle might send me head long into full scale mental, not sure I have the will to do anymore, nevermind wasting all the money. I want some fun and holidays goddamit!
I’m thinking of you sooo much this weekend. I hope they call with good news tomorrow, and bright and early so you don’t have to spend all morning stressing xxxx
Lots of luck lovely!! Hope you’re feeling ok! Xx
Thank you!
Swish! Glad you are being treated well lovely, you deserve it. I have everything crossed for you and am super hopeful. Sending love xxx
Thank you so much sweetie xx
Mmmnnaaahh, getting excited and nervous for you (that’s my excited-nervous sound), hoping for you hard, concentrating on throwing luck across the ocean…xoxox
Thank you honey feel so jittery today!
Hi Sweetie,
I really hope this cycle works for you. Sounds like you’ve got a good backup plan. We’re taking some time off IVF too. I need to write a post about my new plan but I’m too busy.
Xx
I’m a bit late with commenting as I was away but I have been thinking of you from far.. lovely room and breakfast!! I went private from the start but never got such treatment. I’m a bit jealous 😉
xx
Hehe it was very posh! Xx