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I am a bitch

Tragically, the girl I talked bitched about in this post had a miscarriage this week. Apart from feeling very sad for her, I also feel like a grade A bitch for calling her a drama queen. I am pleased that I cleared the air with her after the spa and have been texting her this week and sent her flowers. But still.

This journey teaches you so much about yourself. I seem to have got to the point where I’m convinced that bad things only happen to me and not to the people I know (for the most part). I just naturally assume that everything will be hunky dory for them.

Which I guess makes me not just a bitch, but a self-absorbed bitch to boot.

13 thoughts on “I am a bitch

  1. Oh no, that’s awful. I understand where you’re coming from though, we get so wrapped up in our struggles it’s hard to imagine them happening to others.

  2. Oh I feel you on this one. The other day I snarled about how it’s just peachy that a girl was pregnant and how easy it is for the fertiles of the world ( bitter bitter, bitch bitch) and later I find out she went through IVF to get there.. I hate getting those little wake up calls, but sometimes it helps pull me out of my self absorbed bubble. We’ve all been there, don’t be too hard on yourself 🙂

  3. First of all, you haven’t bitched about your friend, you talked about her. And what I read in your posts was a lot more about you than about her. You had just found out your FET didn’t work and it was hard to show enthusiasm on a friend’s pregnancy. That’s not being a bitch, that’s being human. So, don’t feel bad and don’t be hard on yourself!
    That being said, it is good to be reminded that we shouldn’t be completely self centred. Though I don’t think you are, and sometimes we are in our bubble just because we are in survival mode…
    Even assuming you have been a bitch I am convinced you are a lot more of a lover! (sorry, couldn’t help it, I love that song!)
    xxx

  4. Don’t take all of that on. It is a defense mechanism. It is survival. You absolutely did not wish or want anything to happen to her. It is unfortunte how life works and has created a common thread. It is obvious how deep you love or you would never hurt this deep as well.

  5. I’m so sorry for your friend’s loss. For what it’s worth, I don’t think you’re a bitch. She WAS a drama queen that weekend, getting so upset that you couldn’t be 100% happy for her, when in fact she hadn’t even announced anything. She was the selfish one, not you. There’s no way you could know that this would happen. You’re there for her now, and that’s what matters. ((Hugs))

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